It has been a few days since I made a post. I have been busy trying to move things from my house to my parents. Today it hit me why I had wanted to move out of here as soon as I turned 18. I just feel like I am in the way. Of course not by my mom - I love her so much and I don't know what I would do without her. But I realize now that I took my childhood problems that I had buried down deep inside into my marriage. My deepest fear was being a disappointment and not being about to make my husband happy. And of course I manifested that into my marriage.
Even though I made this realization, and I miss my husband very much, is there any hope that we could make our marriage work? There have been so many horrible things that have been said and done, how do you fix that?
I had made a plan to take the month of March and work on myself. I thought it would be good for me to have a quiet place where I could focus on my goals. That has been hard today but hopefully I can figure out a way to be able to overlook things and not let the hateful comments and looks bother me.
Let's see what tomorrow brings.
xo Sparkles
